Saturday, January 15, 2005
fear
tuesday morning i woke up at 6am to the loudest sudden noise that i can remember ever hearing. i thought it was an explosion. it took me several minutes to figure out what it must have been--thunder. but i was *terrified*. i couldn't get past the possibility that there could have been a bomb exploding near my apartment. the fear was exacerbated by the fact that there was no more thunder after that one peal--it just seemed so strange to me that there would just be the one thunderclap and no more. i couldn't fall back asleep. i haven't been that scared in a really long time. if there had been someone around for me to creep into bed with, you better believe i would have been there in a flash. i left the house around 7 and went to get some food before work. i kept my ears and eyes open for some indication that there had actually been an explosion in my neighborhood, but of course i didn't see any. i found out later that the thunder i heard was paired with a flash of lightning that struck the ground somewhere very close to my house.
it was strange and unsettling to feel such powerful fear about something so irrational.
it was strange and unsettling to feel such powerful fear about something so irrational.
# posted by orange @ 3:10 PM 
